A Story of Connection and Loneliness
(Ek Kahani Rishte aur Akelapan Ki)
~Raat ka samay hai. Tum apni desk par baithe kaam mein doobe ho, jab woh aati hai – tumhari hamesha se neend mein doobi hui girlfriend. Uski maujoodgi saadhaaran hai lekin sukoon dene wali, aisa sukoon jo sirf woh la sakti hai. Uski awaaz fufusahat jitni dheemi hai, aur woh puchhti hai, "Kya tum cuddle karna chahoge?"
Tum usse apni god mein kheench lete ho, aur woh ek aaramdayak ball ki tarah tumhare paas simat jaati hai. Woh aur kareeb aati hai, uski garmahat tumhare andar tak utar jaati hai.
Tum khud ko rok nahi paate aur puchhte ho, "Kya tum theek ho?"
Uska jawaab seedha hai, lekin usmein woh sab kuch hai jo tumhe chahiye tha: "Mujhe bas cuddles chahiye."
Us pal mein kuch khaas hai – ek bharose aur komalta ka mishran. Tum usse back-rub dete ho, pyaar se choomte ho, aur mehsoos karte ho ki uski santushti tumhare apne sukoon se mel kha rahi hai. Fir woh ek pyaare se chehre ke saath kehti hai ki uske pair thande hain. Tum dono par ek kambal daal dete ho, khud ko ek aise bulbule mein bandh kar lete ho, jo duniya ki halchal se achhoota lagta hai.
Woh aadhi neend mein hai, uski saanse dheemi ho rahi hain. Tum kaam par lautne ka sochte ho, lekin aisa kaise kar sakte ho? Woh tumhe rokti hai, apni neend mein bhi zidd dikhati hai. Tum haar maan lete ho, usse jeetne dete ho. Aur us pal mein, tumhe ek completeness (poornata) mehsoos hoti hai. Aisa lagta hai jaise yeh chhota sa pal, yeh pyaar, yeh kareebiyat, tumhe sab kuch de deta hai jiski tumhe zarurat thi.
Lekin fir, tum jaag jaate ho.
Woh garmahat chali gayi. Kamra khamosh hai. Aur asliyat ka bojh tum par aa girta hai. Tum akele ho. Hamesha se akele. Woh sapna asli nahi tha, lekin jo adhoori khwahish usne chhodi, woh asli hai.
Yeh kisi ke tumhe "poora" karne ki zarurat ke baare mein nahi hai; yeh us gehri nazdeeki ke liye tarasne ke baare mein hai, woh ehsaas ki koi tumhe dekh raha hai, tumhe tham raha hai, aur tumse pyaar kar raha hai. Tum us connection ke liye taras rahe ho jo tumhare dil ki goonjti tanhaayi ko shaant kar de.
Aise sapne tumhe yeh yaad dilate hain ki tum kya khoj rahe ho – ek aisa pyaar jo komal ho, saral ho, aur sampoorn ho. Aur jab yeh dard deta hai yeh mehsoos karna ki woh asli nahi tha, yeh ummeed ki ek kiran bhi bota hai: shayad, kabhi, yeh sapna keval sapna nahi rahega.
Tab tak, tum us dard ko chupchaap apne dil mein dabaye rakhte ho, jaise koi khwahish jise zubaan par lane se darte ho. Tum apni desk par wapas jaate ho, dhyan lagane ki koshish karte ho, lekin tumhara ek hissa usi sapne mein atka rehta hai, jahan pyaar itna kareeb aur itna mumkin laga.
~dydu21
Ig:-struggle_boy_21
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